Darkness.....

Okay --so I was setting at the computer late last night and--- POP---out goes the electricity. The wind ,I'm guessing, blew down a power line or a TREE. That has been known to happen in this area---trees blowing down. I have a large and empty hole in my front yard where the tree onced resided.

I think it is a great time to read. Yes, read---with the help of a book light. First I had to make my way to the kitchen for a candle or flashlight. Without knocking into everything along the way. And saving my toes from damage. I find a source of light and my book, with booklight, and commence to reading.

Problems. I'm alone in a dark house, no power, no lights to be seen anywhere and sounds. Lots of sounds. Blowing wind. Chimney hissing and shaking. Windows rattling. No way to get my car from the garage. Yes -I know to pull the cord and lift the door.  Not enough muscle to lift one really big door. All of that was enough . You get the picture.

The problem is---- the book is about night time monsters and creatures of the night. Let's just say  the mood was set and the book came to life. Or not to life - most of the characters are from the dead side. I like a good heart pumping fright but after a while I'd  had enough.

Then I noticed it was quieter. So I put the book down and walked outside at 4:30am. I just stood outside. Listened a while. Felt the cool breeze-the house was getting a little warm. And then I looked ---up. Oh my goodness ! The night sky was BEAUTIFUL !!  And the stars were magnificent. The night sky was a true gift.
 God has the best Bling ---ever. What Sparkle!?!

Hello

It has been a little time since I last said hello so here I am to do a little catch-up.
Not really sure where I have been or what is keeping me from talking but I'm here tonight to talk. Life is always a journey and sometimes the travel is not what we expect.  I still struggle everyday to go in a positive direction but each day I forge onward. Constantly there are obstacles. But the gift of each day is to go on. Struggle or not. Go on.
Tonight seems to be a struggle for me. I'm feeling a little alone. Friends I have had for many years appear to have gone off the radar. I guess that is just life?  But each time that happens it is painful . I don't begrudge them their own life and their journies, but abandonement is always a trip to endure. Abandonement  may be a harsh word but the feeling is the implied effect of the loss of a friend.
I think, for me, it is a painful time when a person you love chooses to not be apart of your life.Not that their journey is not important and good wishes I always have for them, but loss is always painful. I have lost a friend in the past few months-not by neglect but by their desire to go another direction that does not include me.And to them I wish only the best of Life's gifts.I will miss them ---always. Maybe one day my friend will return? That will be a true blessing.
A broken heart has a powerful grip on one's life and influences how one travels through life.
I guess the trouble is with me? How do I go foward? I always thought I had a constant place of comfort in my friend? Maybe I was selfish? Maybe I didn't see what it was my friend needed? I guess that is the question--what kind of friend was I?

I love you friend, I miss you,----I'm here ----always.